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I did... when i was young(yo, im 30 years old now:)..), i had some terrible experiences. Neighbore died(falling tree sliced open his head, brain smashed flew away, etc), and so on. Death is something what gets to you in the end. Inevitable, merciless, always lurking in your back, always watching you, like a project manager.
A bad feeling isnt it?
As i grew i developed strange traits, like intelligence, even worse, i began to think about this whole stuff. Surviving against impossible odds sometimes makes you think(for example, a whole scaffold falls on you and you emerge from the wreckage uninjured) about your existence and such.
I had a so called "psichological meltdown" wich caused me to think about this possiblity. Its an excuse for unvilling to play along with this comedy called life.
To see your and other ppl's end you care for isnt a thing you wish for...
Hard to accept, hard to comprehend, even harder to endure the whole stuff while you live and have ppl you care for.
This is why i care so much for my friends. I help them to bear the weight of being themself and so on(but this is an other story).
It helps me to endure my existence too.
My life.

Its not being emo.
Did you had negative experiences with death?
(sry being sarcastic)

Oh contraire, it is.
Le sigh

Once, it was a bad time, but clearly I got past that nonsense.


I think about SuicideGrl all the time though, is that the same?

Suicide no well i guess once when i was into drugs and it was a bad time for my family but i dont think i'd have the balls to do something like that, i have knew a few people that had killed themselves and i always wondered what could push them to do it. Iam not scared to die just scared to see what comes after death itself.

/Story
Like two weeks ago a ladie who was like the top of the 'CSI' in Northern Ireland had a baby and she put a BBQ in her car and killed herself with the posions from it, leaving a 1 month old baby with no mum. / i dont see what someone could do that leaving their children behind >.>

Its called post birth depression.
Dam hard to overcome.
Similar case was when a mother killed all of her children. She drowned them... all 4 in Asustralia, when my memory serves.
The basics are rly simple. The mother begins to think about how hard and cruel things await their childrens and in the end, they come up to this surreal "solution": better to be dead now as to suffer while he/she lives.

/story2
My mother after my birth cried all night, almost every second day. She mourned me, coz she knew ill be dead someday. She slept with a flashlight to protect me from "shady ppl" and so on. Creepy thing...

My mother suffered from post natal depression for 3 years after having my brother, the women didnt try to recieve help from anyone as her husband said he didnt notice anything different in her moods.

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Yes, I considered it. Was very, very unhappy for a period, but I refrained

Now it's either save someone, or take a bunch with me.

Hell no m8!

Never thought of suicide, but in some situations death seems better

i have never thought of suicide.

i don't think i could live with leaving so many sad faces behind.

I have done once, many many years ago, I was very young at the time and going through a really bad time But I thought about the people that I would be leaving and how sad they would be.

But sometimes I feel as though I just want to die, not suicide or anything.

what does it feel like to think about suicide? do u go thru this step by step process, or all ur bad feelings just rush u and u sink into depression?

Just a question noting to do with emo

Wow XemmasXD post was really depressing =/ Idon't know how i would handle having to see someone i love suffer for so long.

lol basically the whole emo culture is about this subject

The one thing I know about any and all emos I've met is they are the kind that will never commit to suicide; self-harm is just another form of attention seeking.

As for me, yes I have considered it before. I've had more then enough shit to deal with and I got confronted by a lot at once and almost snapped. But I'm getting my shit in order and am moving on.

i love it how, some people talk about it as a "very lame thing" = beeing emo , thinking about suicide.
When in my opinion, it's a normal thing...
If you've never thought about it, it's ok, but still
my point is
you're kinda of ridiculizing a thing, that should be normal in human beeings..

meh idk

We do not live to kill ourselves.

Who ever thought about suicide




Think about suicide, the actions itself, the interesting questions of what happens.

Or, you could think about it, as if you were gonna do it cause you're gonna put an end to what life can offer to you in the future..


I think that, there's a point in many ppl's lives, where your mind starts thinking about a lot of stuff, and randmly picks suicide.. and you start thinking about it.
Some people take the step, to plan it out and think they'll do it
Some people just get curious but know they'll never do it
Some people just think it'd be great if all the suffer could end, but suicide would not be good at all for many different reasons
Some people just think , omg stfu to themselves cause they are afraid of dieing
And some people think maybe someone will notice what they're trying to do and..

yeah, you get the point
Idk why, all those thoughts, seem pretty natural from Human's behaviour to me, because if you see, we humans always try to find a solution to what harms us right?
And not always, you can't choose what your thoughts go across, and you ocasionally stop at suicide.

Because it'd eventually be a solution to your suffer.

But please, dont face what i just typed with all that "OMGZ EMO SHIT, GO KILL YOURSELF N00BS" mood, just read it as if it was a new in a newspaper.

If you find that emo, you shouldnt agree with me, that it's normal in Human beeings behaviour right?
But.. how does that make sence?
If it doesnt enlighten me

A girl from my neighbour tried to kill herself ... she failed ...

epic fail.

Correct. A sentient being made for survival should not kill itself but being a slightly intelligent creature means thought. Means thinking, the ability to perceive, comprehend, and construct. Occasionally while pondering, just Over Looking. You may come across something peculiar, a paradox. Suicide is that paradox. You hold it, you watch it, you think it over, and you question it. The question is always the same: Why and then what?

As a human being; as curious as we are, You will seek out an answer. The why answer is explainable but still leaves a lot to be desired: as it goes against certain logic. The then what answer, well. That is something that one learns to live with and accept. One can never really answer the "then what". We know as much as we're willing to know and that is nothing.

Why: Pressure, Honor, Glory, Depression, Fatigue, Defeat.
Then What: Nothing.

Then you ask yourself, what is nothing?

I did contemplate Suicide a while back, My mom was in the hospital with breast cancer and my dad was nowhere to be found. The doctors said it looked bad and that my mom might not make it.

Meanwhile my dad was out somewhere with another woman and totally didn't care for us, So those were stressfull times for me. But my mom recuperated completely without any after effects and she could keep both of her breasts. But during those months when i had to do all those chores and do to shopping and cleaning i sometimes caught myself thinking about suicide.

But to me it was merely a valve of tension's release ,a valve i could always release when things became to much for me to handle. And unlike so many users here i did not posses Superman's mental strenght. So i did contemplate it for some days.

Then decided this is my life and i will make the best of it as i go on. Just to see where my little boat would end up. Then my mom got better and came back home. We kicked Dad to the curve and last time i heard something from that man he was in debt,had alcohol problems and really had no strenght to move on. Ooh, and that bimbo left him to.


Now i have a good life with a girlfriend and a healthy mom. After i graduate in 2 years ( Doing a special accelerated program ) me and my girl are moving to my Hometown.

Ooh and we'll buy a nice condo, We have already decided on some new projects that are scheduled to be build in the near future.

So yes, I did contemplate it for some time, then decided that i would not give in to something like that and i went on. Now when i look back i'm glad i did.

I thought about ir pretty much...

But that was more because of (Now you can enter my crazy world again) to see if people would miss me. To see how people who ever dared to even raise a finger at me react. How my friends would deal with it. If the wholde school would go back to black...

How my already half dead family (you can't even call us a family. We're more like... students put together in the same house without even knowing eachother)

I would want to see how everyone looks at that. My friends, my foes, my barkeepers, my work...

(I'd love to know how it is, so if I ever get a wish, I wish I would be dead for a day, and that everybody knew about it, and that I could see how everybody holds up without me. Then after a day I would go on with my life, and everybody except for me would forget about how it was, so I could understand people a lot better)

I think life if full of moments like that. There is so much everything in the world beauty, pain, love, hate, suffering, bliss, joy, sadness. I think everyone should have moments where they are overcome by these feelings, and like Lester says you have to stop trying to capture it and just let its wash over and through you. It makes you appreciate life and death so much more.

Yes I have, but then realized that suicide is for pussies. Running away from your problems is never the answer.

i dont see why pepole kill themselves life is filled with good stuff but with those good stuff alot off bad stuff will happen
life is short when ure in a deep problam u get help from frineds/family the meaning off life in my opinion is too live and try too get out as much fun suecces frineds and enjoying the really good things in life

Not a good thing...

yup i did when i first came to the usa and all the kids in my class made fun of me